what is the day but a fleeting moment of the passing sun. the days now seem shorter as im enjoying myself in camp. all of a sudden, almost everybody is starting to have a sense of humour; the instructors joke a lot, the sergeants talk a lot of bullshit to us and we hardly get punishments. so the whole week was spent laying hoses , scaling ladders leg locking in their rungs and running around in the sun listening to non-stop 99.5 radio hits with the best DJ in town , SAMANTHA!! "IF I CANNOT HEAR YOU, U ALL RUN ANOTHER ROUND"
-this is how it runs in our fashion.

I no money I don't care,
I wear big big underwear.
underwear! I don't care!
:
:

-another one

hey hey heya!
hey hey hey hey!
once i had my pink IC,
now i have 11B
:
:

tough training nonetheless but most of us pulled through the week without much injuries. then on friday we received our book out shirt to go with our own smart shoes and pants. quite good being a cadat actually, at least we don't need to enter and leave camp with our no.4 unlike recruits.

met shanping for dinner later tt fri at bukit timah plaza. he was telling me zhixian was nominated for OCS !! this is an interesting twist for our dear friend, well good luck in any case.

Ha

here's something from Civil Defence Academy (CDA) . a general led his troops to war and after a long battle with lots of bloodshed, he came back with bra and panties. why?

we made the big move from BRTC to CDA on monday and will be there for another 23 weeks. a week has passed and i`ve never missed home this much. just returned from a 5km run at east coast today, damn shagged now. i kind of miss all my pj friends and sec sch friends. this course is going to sap the life out of me. 1st week, burnt my sat doing a 5km run at east coast. next week sunday gotta report early morning for guard duty until monday morning. the following weekend after tt will be an exercise tt will last all the way till sunday. means i book out at 7+am and in again at 10+pm on sunday. ridicuous, might as well stay in camp and sleep then instead of wasting money on transport and time spent travelling. tt's pretty much close to having no life at all. all i can describe my training is imagine urself wearing winter clothing with a motorcycle helmet running in the hot run and doing exercises. tt's the firefighter gear. sian... of course we do have class room activities as well.

when people see me, they`re bound to say "eh u in CD ar? wah, good life sia, i also want." seriously these people should try running with fireman gear just 1 round around CDA then think twice. the thought of dropping course kept popping into my head whenever we have training. haix, must endure.. i want my pay !

-answer: because he came back in triumph. Ha. HA. HA. civil defence.

Camp

so the PTP phase is finally over. i like my old platoon a lot, the people there regardless of their shady backgrounds, know the meaning of cooperation during training. of course there will be 1 or 2 idiots who are just downright selfish, but anyway, i`ll miss these bunch of people. this week, the new batch arrived in on tuesday so the old platoon 7 and 8 had to combine with my platoon to become the new platoon 9. platoon 8 only creates problems and platoon 7 only knows hw to shout. so when you combine both together, it becomes a marked platoon thus we do double of what we used to do during training. 300 over pushups a day, power leg training and jumping jacks 100 counts of 8.

maybe im lucky enough to get posted out, so no more seeing platoon 8 and 7 but this is where all hell breaks loose. they threw all the A lvls and diploma holders to the specialist unit aka Emergency Response Specialists(ERS). the average fireman trains for 3 months to get a fire badge but we have to train for 6 months which is inclusive of the firefighter training for the first 3 months. so on paper, i POP on the 29th june when everybody else passes out 7 weeks from now. i didnt know hw to respond when i got the posting, still having mixed feelings about it. i might as well join commandos in SAF because the training is just as tough. i thought civil defence would be a haven from the grueling training of the army, but now everything is dashed. anyway, hope i can endure for another 6 months, then i can just work for 1 day and get 2 days off. effectively i work 10 days a month by then. it will be something worth looking forward to.

tell you a little thing about civil defence. next time you see a fireman, never use the term fireman because they don't like it. the proper term should be Fire-Fighter. i don't really know what's the difference its just that the 'fighter' add-on seems more prestigious and honorable. just like what our garbage-man in singapore is termed Environmental Engineer overseas. it just means they take pride in their work.

so then, until next time.

Civil Defence

My life has been good after As with the excessive amount of spending and having fun. spent $230 plus to buy a ps2 so i could play to rot my time away whilst waiting to be enlisted into CIVIL DEFENCE. keenhong and gang came over to my place to drink whisky and that day got me drunk for the first time in my life. i wasn't that drunk, but drunk enough to see things i shouldnt be seeing and the world seemed kind of warped. the effects of alchohol are really potent, and i never want to get drunk again. lol, it makes you lose your sanity and brings you in a dream-like state. your body seems a whole lot lighter which is probably why drunk people never walk straight ( i couldnt walk straight too, btw ). you feel like the best kung fu fighter even though you know nuts about it and basically you become delusional. keenhong and debra were dead drunk.

then comes prom. prom night was a disappointment. the food was average despite the high price but the emcee (Flying Dutchman) was entertaining. i think everybody had a hard time identifying people because the whole lot just underwent an extreme makeover. i took few pictures, only those with guys and a few with alison/emmaline and my class people. i think right in total i only took 5 pictures. damn pathetic sia. could get the pictures i wanted to take.

on the 12th i was enlisted into C Def. i booked out a few days ago. its a ****ed up place. most people are either from some gang with tatoos from neck to toe and most of them are *****s . these people think they own the place just because they make up the numbers and they have 'backing' outside. alright, so be it then, but that is no excuse to be slackers, lazy ****ers who just know how to complain about everything and do nothing. there is so much to do during area cleaning, why? because the bloody ****ers act busy running from place to place with broom and mop in hand or hiding in some corner smoking.so we end up doing most of the work. And why can they do all these? oh, its because they have tatoos and 'backing' outside. i don't give a shit about all their 'backing' because that is still no excuse to be lazy and stupid. YA, STUPID. which person in the right frame of mind will make fun of the SERGENT right infront of his face. formal marching can laugh and play 1 anot? CANNOT LAH. but these mother ****ers do that and everybody gets the punishment. this is a message specially to these people "You are spoiling the image of your race. It's no wonder people look at you with contempt and prejudice, because you are doing this to yourself" while maintaining my stand that im not racist. i`ve seen some nicer ones in my camp as well. they`re nice, friendly, though they`re also from some gang outside with lots of tatoos, they work as hard as all of us and cooperate. i respect these people because they humble themselves. every night, i also always talk to a few of them and they`re quite merry people. they have a great sense of humour and they do agree with me that there are ****ers in the camp who will bring us all down. i want to go home every weekend and not spend my weekend in camp for something stupid im not responsible for. we nearly got that on friday because the ****ers are never serious abt anything. they want to spend their weekend in camp, fine by me, just don't drag me along with it. i really do like some of them. some of them are pro break dancers and always talk rubbish with me. respect.

anyway, other than the people, the system in place is good to us. we get to book out every friday at 530pm and in every sunday by 8pm. the food is GOOD. really good, i was shocked as well as my impression of army food was bad. we do get free time to relax in the bunk and that is much needed for all of us. but when training comes, we'd walk away from the training ground with lots of sweat and aching muscles. oh, i wake up at 4:20 every morning by the way, because we have to fall in by 5am and sergent wants us to be down by 4:45 . 15mins leeway for anything that crops up.

3rd semester

hello,

my mid year results very OFF lar. seriously very OFF . OFF until i need to see principal. she told me results can be changed, and wun talk much abt it. instead its an attitude talk. i made some major improvements since the common test, but sadly the other teachers dun feel tt way. "Slight improvement" . seriously lar, they want me to wear big big specs and everyday smile at them in lessons then they will be satisfied issit.

post mid year friday nights have been spent eating out with keenhong, tuyuan , guanzuo and satish. there was one night i saw a few pj students in cineleisure when we were eating in subway. oh did u know subway has very nice meals. the ham and lettuce complements the freshly baked bread giving it a fine taste. im going to have another go at subway man.

i made a resolution as well. leave Dotaing to weekends or cut it completely if i can help it. chiong physics everyday to catch up with the class. im nt going to fail physics this time man, felix is going to make a come back . success = failure + talent . the failure part is already very high, so success is possible. what`s left is the talent.

Vacation

hey,

it has been a while man. sry, but had no mood to blog recently tts why. sometimes i find nothing to blog, though the intention is there. i guess it`s just a week away till mid year starts, and the heat is building up already. i dun want to fail man.. yet failure seems imminent. i did study man, but not enough for physics.. felix, physics. felix , physics. felix will fail physics. it rhymes. hah.

ok, now onto what i`ve been doing this holiday. mentioning studying is irrelevant, because all of you reading this probably did so as well. i bought a few books recently and finished most of them. this is a book everyone should read if given the chance. Magician. written by Raymond E Feist. It's sequel Silverthorn and A Darkness at Sethanon is very interesting as well. then comes the next series. A Song Of Ice and Fire, written by george rr martin. quite interesting as well. well, both are fantasy stories, and voted best among books, so you guys should read it too if u have the time. i really want to be a novelist man, this is a dream i have since end of sec 4.

anyway, i was watching Lord of the Rings the other day. don't you find it very inspirational? i like this part where theoden tells his men.

'Eomer, take your Eored down the left flank,
Gamling, follow the King's banner down the center,
Forth, and fear no darkness!'

Arise, Arise Riders of Theoden!
Spears shall be shaken, Shields shall be splintered
A Sword day, A red day
Ere the sun rises!

Ride now, Ride now!
Ride! Ride for ruin,
And the world's ending!
Death!
(the men of Rohan cries in unison)

Forth Eorlingas!
(horns blew one last time and mounts spurred forward, a step at a time)



then this one was by aragon at the Black Gate

Hold your ground!
(points to his men) Hold your ground!

I see in your eyes,
The same fear that will take the heart of me.
A day may come, when the courage of men fails,
And break all bonds of fellowship,
But it is not this day!

An hour of wolves, and shattered shields,
And when the age of men comes crashing down,
But it is not this day!
This day, We Fight!

By all that you hold dear on this good Earth,
I bid you stand!
Men of the West!

Tolkien is a genius man. do you remember the games you played where they have Mithril swords and armor? do you know where it came from? Tolkien. he came out with this concept of dwarves in Moria. if you guys read the Return of the King, at 1 of the appendices, he explains the mines of Moria holds something more precious than gold or gems, that is Mithril and riches are but toys to the dwarves. the real treasure is Mithril which is indestructable and used to forge weapons and armour. Tolkien actually used alot of historical stuff in Lord of the Rings. his part about Aragon at the black gate, facing an army many times his own, motivates them and wins the day is actually a scene from shakespeare`s Henry the V act 3 scene 1. the english army was upon the french`s. i think it`s at agincourt if i remember correctly or dunno wad. he tells his men to motivate them

(its a very long text, so jus the end part only)
I see you stand like greyhounds in the slips,
Straining upon the start. The games`s afoot:
Follow your spirit and upon this charge
Cry 'God for Harry, England and Saint George!'

it`s no wonder Lord of the rings is the top of all fantasy books. it took Tolkien 16 years to write it man.

ok, back to my timetable. besides reading fantasy, i also played games and went out with friends to lunch and town roaming. i asked keenhong to join me in ROSE online the other day. gt the free trial thing u noe, 7 days. i hit lvl 30. nt bad liao ok haha. i think after the A lvls im going to pay-to-play it. my computer cant support World of Warcraft. Final Fantasy 11 also cant. the graphics is jus too powerful for my computer.

i cant wait for A levels to end man. i cant wait to do so many things. go hang out, play games, write my story, etc etc. time is a luxury we dont seem to have.. i want 1 thing right now, time.

A birthday, the best day

hey,

today`s my birthday man and it was the best. thanks for everything guys. i really appreciate all of you coming into my life. To my outram classmates who spent friday chionging lan with me, thankyou very much. To my PJ friends from 04S19, thanks for studying with my at KAP the other day. To my 05S30 friends, thank you so much for all that fun talking, playing, drinking, eating, bastarding people and gossipping. To my 05S15 friends whom i got to know this year, though it hasnt been long, i think u`re all pretty nice people to say the least. except of course to the person who hates S30 guys, damn you and fuck you. u`re hating the people who really made pj more than just a school to me.

last week i couldnt sleep at all. i think it's something wrong with my sleeping style or position. so effectively, i slept for only 3 to 4 hours last sunday and came to school with my mind hanging on the edge almost sleeping my day through in class. emmaline told me i looked like a zombie. later on in the day met keenhong tuyuan and satish for lunch and suki sushi. somehow it wasnt as great was compared to when we first went there. softshell crab was still like the signature dish. we talked alot and decided to split keenhong`s cost as his birthday present cuz we didnt actually get anything for him. For monday, i set a new record the moment i reached home. i took a bath, and went straight to bed at 7:45pm. all the way to? 6:15am the next morning. refreshing sleep, i need more of this kind of record breaking sleeps man.

birthday resolution:
-i think no point lar. the more i say will do, i find myself not doing.

-smile !

fuck physics
screw yueh hwa

im on the edge of school. i didnt have enough time to finish the econs essay. i studied but i still couldnt finish the paper.

went to bugis dunno hw many weeks ago with john, sewei and shanghao. junwei that asshole was playing Redmoon at home and didnt want to come. bugis is supposed to be our gaming paradise every weekend until 10 plus pm before, but now most of them are in NS, we seldom go there anymore. junwei used to tank rush me in the first few minutes into red alert 2 or generals, after which all of us decided to have a truce for the first 15minutes of every game. bloody cheaters. lol

few weeks ago had seoul garden dinner with guanzuo and keenhong n gang. damn nice man. we were practically playing in seoul garden itself man. all that laughing and stuff lol. though the marina bbq was better. they played zhong zi mi ma? den started mixing ice cream with coke and all the bull shit sauces. i damn heng. only tio once. hahaha. i thijk guanzuo tio 2 times. chris also. as far as i heard, they had stomach ache after tt. that friday was different. usually every friday we would hang out at esplanade after dinner at cityhall area overlooking the sea and jus talk/gossip/prank/catch up with what`s going on with our friends/their future plans/everything until about midnight? i really enjoyed all those times man. i remember us seeing Ix Shen and ERICIA LEE walking down to shears bridge. she`s damn skinny sia. on screen, she looks hot with that figure and stuff but in real life she`s even skinnier than any girl in pjc.

1 week holiday was very boring. most of the time was spent studying though i`d have liked going out to play. on monday, ate carls junior with tuyuan and gang for dinner. now i know there are 2 carls. 1 is carls junior, the other is carls burger. i think carls junior is rather nice. guan zuo bought a rabbit for 34 dollars and we were talking about food to feed the rabbit. i told him, i have a friend who`s rabbit eats paper. who else? EMMALINE ! haha. emmaline emmaline, ur rabbit really doesnt have long to live. feed ur rabbit this kind of stuff.

i was with junwei on sunday at orchard. bought another volume of School Rumble and was laughing through the night reading it. damn i love that series. i have never loved a series as much as SR, so im going to recommend this to everybody to read and watch. had dinner at Pepper Lunch . fantastic..

damn i love fantasy stories. im going to add The Magician, The Novice and The Priestress of White(i think tts the title) to my collection.

=D smile

yo !

its been a while. just didnt have the mood to blog. no particular reason though.

2 weeks ago.
met michael on both mon and tuesday. he wanted to borrow my magic cards so i met him but i forgot to give it to him, so we met again on tues. this time, we went town. the lamest thing was that we were on the same bus all the time but i was sitting/sleeping on the 2nd carriage or the long bus where he was all the way infront. supposed to meet at orchard mrt station control but when i walked out of the bus when it hit orchard, i saw him also. damn lame lar. anyway, its like a small S19 gathering except without yichen and raymond.

reminds me of the time jerry was the hit name during our year 1. when i 1st came to pj during march, i was lost. i didnt noe any1 except ian and my other outram people. then i appealed like hell to get into fmaths class 04S19 which was more of a mistake of the past. the only great thing out of joining a fmaths class was knowing the great people that make it up, michael, keenhong, yichen, raymond, mingzhong, yuhshin all of them. that time, the class was more or less united as one already. i still can remember it was more like a mingzhong-era . everything didnt go too smoothly cuz of my poor social skills, so i hung out with michael, jerry, yichen and raymond. then came the dumbest thing. our little group of 5 had something like a "leader" , that was jerry. we seldom mixed with the rest of the class so we didnt quite know the truth behind that fucker. he`d always be sticking around michael so i assumed they were very gd friends, just like me and the outram people. so jerry talked to us and made himself seem like everybody respects him in pjc n that he was super popular with girls. over time, we realised he was all talk only. he doesnt go out, he studies so much that made us doubt his intelligence cuz of his average scores, and he`d always be coming up to us telling us "imagine 1 day i punch you" . he tells us stories about how he got cornered by 20 people with knifes at the stairs behind bukit panjang bowling alley and got away without a scratch all because of a stupid girl he tried to jio. and all those girls he tried to jio, it was jus plain bullshit. he`d ask his friends to get her number, den he`d msg the girl posing as somebody else den revealing his identity at the end. by that time, the girl`d get so irritated by him that she wun even reply a single sms. he doesnt have the guts to do a single thing and always receiving threats from outside people . deserves it man. then in the end, everybody avoided him and i got the bulk of all the nonsense. he complained to the fat slut Lynsey Lee and i had counselling by Eddie Koh all because of his complain "the whole class avoid me" and he say me and michael were the main culprits. fucker. yichen , raymond and shuei yi also got it. he is 1 fucker tt made my reputation go downhill among the teachers, n he`s always blaming every1 but himself. even until nw, eddie koh look at me like im ET or a monster. fucking asshole. 1 week ago, eddie koh asked me y am i eating cup noodles. i said not enough time to eat in canteen. he straight away replied in tt guai lan tone "so? the school`s fault lar?" wad the.. jerry, the ultimate M.Fkr

anyway, enough reminiscing about year 1. last week was valentines day and boy, it was great. i made a card for both alison and emmaline and got things in return. then, thursday, met keenhong and tuyuan for lunch . they came to school to wait cuz they were nearby. i was having a gp meeting n they waited in the canteen catching up with ryan, shamus, karwai and kienhin. really miss those guys. life in S15 is nt say the best like last year, but better than nothing. this zhixian will always be pang sehing me for his own benefit. i hate it totally. he`d avoid sitting with me in lessons even when i told him to sit beside me to test his action. den when i come back from toilet, he`d be a few seats away. i`d ask him "i tot i told u sit beside me?" den he`d give tt gay smile, laugh and say "sorry larrrr~~ " . another shitter in class. continuation of J1. except i`ve been through hell in J1 so this is nothing much. i cant stand it. totally pisses me off cuz he thinks we`re a hindrance to his studying. we`re only friends with him when we`re CONVENIENT. other than that, we`re nothing than pests tt would affect his grades. total bastard. his whole life revolves around CCK and when i say we`re having a class outing to town or steamboat, he`d come up with come bloody lame excuse tt is so obvious a lie cuz his story doesnt match AT ALL. be more creative in replies lar. either help mother mop floor, wan2 go home to rest cuz he is very tired or he has alot of homework to do, when that day has little work to be done. and when i say we going lot1 to eat, he NO PROBLEM at all. he can stay at lot1 and talk to u all the way until 5:30 from 2 onwards. u say go town, he`s so uncomfortable with the idea cuz its far from home.. orghhh, so touching, the power of home yea... i damn bastard yea, but my patience is really wearing thin with him. i try to include him in whatever we do, but he`s always telling me stories.

oh then last last week, we had a steamboat at marina. was kind of successful yea, the whole gang came together again, except without laihui and satish. damn nice lar the steamboat, was 12 bucks only and even so many times better than seoul garden. makes you want to never go back seoul. the prawns were live somemore sia lol. we were about to dunk the prawn into the soup when it started wriggling again. super fresh. now i know, prawns give the soup base a sweet taste. im becoming more of the cook i want to be ! lolx.

y do i keep digressing? lolx. sry i get distracted easily. anyway, after my gp meeting, me, tuyuan and keenhong headed down to cineleisure for suki sushi. damn nice. we should have gone there instead to eat the other time. its more costly, but i think it`s really damn worth it for that few dollars more. keenhong has good taste. recommanded me and tuyuan the best dish, soft shell crab. really feel like eating it again. lolx. but it was kinda sad satish couldnt join us. he`s broke and not receiving pay. anyway, must join us next time ok satish?! our bitching group isnt complete without you and guanzuo man. man, i have so many stories to tell u guys n there`s so little time to say. lolx.

then, last friday, guanzuo we all went out. i dismissed from sch bout 330+ but but raining so heavily, so shared a cab with audrey and florina they all to D.Gout mrt. had tuition at 5:30 till 7:35 and headed straight down to cityhall for dinner at carls jr. and drinking session at esplanade. nearly settled for ramen den guanzuo wanted carls jr. damn expensive sia, 1 meal gz ordered 14 dollars. my order was bout 9 dollars. tuyuan`s 1 i not sure. chris came halfway during our dinner and we hung out after tt. damn shiok. den talk and talk all the way. but i was in sch U with tt heavy bag . not only tt, worried tt police might catch cuz i in sch U and i dun look like 18 at all. lol. stayed until nearly 1130 and took a bus home. saw jeremy and his gf on the bus. his gf damn chio. my god man. he doesnt really look tt good, but his sense of fashion is fantastic. i`ve seen it a couple of times. must learn from these people sia.

life this week has been cool, gets colder when friend`s pangseh u for convenience. my god, here i go again. hahaha. i noticed that people change really quick these days. effects of puberty? i dunno lar, but it always seems difficult to cope with changes. just for the better or the worse. dunno. so, when things start to be different, i guess it`s about time to act differently as well.

smile for tomorrow !
=D

yo

yo,

im back again man pple lolx. the past week was great dudes.

last saturday shamus, ryan and karwai came over to my place. supposed to be go gym but we ended up playing battlefield1942 and pushed the gymming backwards. so in the end we got about 40mins of gymming. some people are just stupid. another resident brought in visitors into the gym. the real stupid thing was that they were all outside clothing. u noe, the kind people wear to orchard road or clubs. this kind of stupid wear in the gym with slippers and sandles, obviously the security guard will come lar. really brainless sia. after gymming, headed straight to amelia`s church concert. supposed to be 2 dollars a tix but she didnt charge us in the end. all i can say is, luckly we were 1 hour late. we were jus sitting there for half an hour and it felt like 3 hours has passed. the angmo guy was good lar, can talk , preach and all, but other than that, i felt like the christians there were quite act. im also a christian, but i dun go to church anymore because im just lazy too wake up early for morning service. ya noe... i work so hard in sch and stuff..haha. point is my sleep is important. but i still believe in God and Jesus yea.

went to Lau Pa Sak after the church concert to eat. got duck satay... sia lar, my first time seeing duck satay and turkey satay. we didnt really try the turkey satay but we tried the duck one. not bad, only that it was quite oily. duck fats. cannot eat too much.. later my 6 pack disappear... hahah jk jk.

tuesday, went for lunch with tuyuan, keenhong and satish at sakae sushi in heeeren. lunch buffet only starts at 3 and we were there at 2:25. wad to do? wait. lolx. but not bad, we ate all the way till about 5:30 den walked around taka and went home. fantastic lunch man, i was so full. the soft shell crab was so nice as well. sashimi.. sushi.. wooot. damn nice sia ! den we were laughing and talking so loudly lar. we damn basket. satish took his hp and took pictures of himself eating and acting cute.. only S30 people know who im talking about yea? hahaha, we did everything like "somebody" did . take pictures of food.. and take the cup with the word "Sakae" den put stupid captions "the water was cold...." hahahah, we damn bastards sia. damn fun man. satish eat sushi by eating the FISH and leaving the rice. WAH LAO, wastage will charge 1 u know, satish ?! den keenhong say throw the rice inside the miso soup . in the end we put the rice inside a tissue and threw it in the dustbin. u nv hear michael jackson song b4 ar? "there are people dying..." lol. den he take the prawn sushi and just take the prawn. den the prawn sashimi plate, u jus see 2 lumps of rice. pretend sommore lar, he think we not looking den quickly take the prawn and put inside his mouth. WE SAW IT MAN ! really damn fun. we gotta have more of these outings. except, not sushi again this time.

today my econs test script had this comment "no more toilet breaks for you, Felix" diao. u gotta understand man mr yap that your lessons r sometimes so boring that i need to wash my eyes to freshen up.

smile !
=D

haha sorry man tuyuan. i know i know. was supposed to blog 5 things about myself, 5 friends i wanna tag and additional 5 resolutions earlier but i always end up sleeping or watching tv instead lolx.

1) i make alot of noise. i dun like the silence between friends and i like to spice things up abit with my lame humour and silly comments. a guy with a pretty good sense of humour. so if i dun get a joke, means its just lousy. lolx !

2) im a deep thinker . though i look like that, i do think about wad life is all about sometimes. when im doing thinking about alot of stuff, u`ll see me quiet and unfriendly, sometimes giving unwanted remarks because mainly, my focus isnt there but lost somewhere in my mind . also, i think too much of the implications if i say certain things. that`s why i have alot of trouble saying whats on my mind or telling others what i know. those who know me know i do keep certain things from them. its not because i happy den dun wan to say lar, but more like.. i read too much into people`s possible reactions (and its mostly negative) .

3) i cant stand seeing sad and troubled faces. sounds childish, but i want to see smiles of joy. thats y i try my best to help in whatever way possible .

4) im quite a stupid person actually. those who know me well know that i cant really hate a person. i may bad mouth alot but if some1`s nice to me, i`ll actually believe in their kindness and make a 180 degree turn in my attitude towards them. quite easy to cheat huh.

5) im a sucker for sincerity. pple just have to be sincere in their request and i`ll do what i can. i also try my best to be as sincere as possible in everything i do. and i dun do things half heartedly.


5 people i`ll tag : ryan, michelle, shan ping, alison, amelia

5 resolutions: -read it from the previous post-


this week-

nice nice. this week`s better than last week. y? because its raining lesser and lesser. how funny it is right, whenever it rains, people feel down and out. how glad am i to see the sun again this week. just dun burn too hot, or i`ll hate u. and wow, i got a P-MC for PE. no need go PE anymore. im smiling man. lolx. bottom line is, things are working fine for me this week. i settled the GP problem, i settled the computer problem, i didnt get any scoldings at all. nice man. i think im on my way to becoming a good boy already. lolx. no more monkeying in class already. means no more OCEAN lolx. no more singing.

damn, i really miss the old S30. KEEN HONG, GUAN ZUO, TU YUAN, SATISH ! COME BACK ! damn lar, miss u all like siao. summore nw i dont clique with my current class. its not that i dun want to make friends lar, its more like.. they`re together for 1 year already. den nw sch put me in that class. im like the extra around. of course i know where i stand also. that i should just know my place and shut my mouth. tts why i try my best to stay away from them as much as possible. its kinda weird being with them. they`re nice people. i can tell by just listening to them talking away in class. their bond is very strong, thats y i try not to break into their circle n i nv talk to anyone of them about anything apart from the admin qns as a GP rep . why cant S30 stay as a class even for this year? damn. every year split class.

did some studying today finally and had to deal with a few problems. not tt i enjoy doing it, but it has to be done. and no apologies required. tts a condition for my unconditional friendship in return. haha. oxymoron. who cares, im a moron who nv listens anyway. lolx. remembered wad jasmine scolded me before for never listening to others and over confident sometimes. 4 years already and i still remember wad she said from the start of the conversation to the end. times flies sia.

nothing much these few days. only yesterday i ate at lot1 with emmaline, alison and narin. ROTI PRATA haha. emmaline`s stomach is not suited for indian food already. she msged ask me if i got stomach ache also. prata nice loh. lolx. its long time nv eat liao tts why. ali ate western food. erhem also ate western food. now, tts wad i call fate. den later went down orchard for class . den got 1 guy ask me if im partially blind. wad the hell sia. i was just washing my face in the toilet to freshen up den he ask me "u like my son ar, partially blind" HAR? how to see sia. maybe he see my face frowning or squinting tts why said tt. which reminds me chanthong has been asking me receltly why he always see my face so cramped or frowning. its not anything lar, jus tired. today still talk with amelia on phone for so long.

fire and stars

wad a way to start a year. already so many things have happened in just 2 weeks. i can really laugh and see all the stupid things that happened. my school life, being stuck in S15. my social circle, totally wrecked . im seeing less and less of my good friends. so many good friends gone. so many buddies that i can laugh and share things with are all gone. either at home, or in different classes. why am i stuck with people that i do not think i can come to like? i dunno. i like to question God sometimes why did he place me in a class with a few people i really dislike. i dunno.. mayb he wants to show to me that there isnt such a thing as hate at first impression.

fires and stars are complicating things. the problem is, they are hot. they burn when u get too near. they may experience sudden changes in temperature due to unexpected hydrogen variations. very hard to understand it and predict . i guess that`s why there are so many people staring up at the night sky gazing upon it`s beauty. its soft radiating light. stars are far away, but not impossible to reach. with science, nothing is impossible already. so those who have the will and determination, will definitely reach them. but they must also have faith in the science that will take them up there. its quite simple right. u want to reach a star, build a spaceship. but if you want to reach a goddess, u must first become a god. very difficult.

new year resolutions:
- sincerity
- do what i can in utmost good faith for the people i care
- study hard
- stop speculating events to come. just take a step at a time
- stop looking at girls
- reduce computer time to 1 hour a day
- be true to my feelings
- no hypocrisy
- control my tongue from blurting unintentional remarks
- have faith and trust in my friends
- not to have crushes based on physical attraction. but through mature assessment of character
- be more patient
- be more understanding
- be more polite
- stop scolding "fuck" when things go wrong
- understand other people`s good intentions
- be sure to train arm strength
- control emotions and feelings and just smile when things go wrong
- to have courage for my friends
- be more whacky and cheerful'
- smile more

hry

hey,


previously, i had a bbq .it was 4 days ago, a monday. we had alot of fun, and i got thrown into the pool. we were laughing and talking. 1st, i`d like to thank all who brought food, 2nd, i`d like to thank all who came. it was kind of great man, after quite some time, all gathering and bbqing food together. i have to give credit to those who brought the stuffs that made the bbq possible. it isnt in order, so the first names do not actually mean anything.

Crabsticks, potatos, beer, drinks , salads
-Keen Hong
-Lai hui
-guanzuo

Drinks (beer , coke and wine)
-Tu Yuan
-satish
-Zhi Xiang
-Christopher

Agar Agar, fish
- Alison

Satay
-Shamus
-Kar Wai
-Ryan
-Kien Hin
-Chan Thong

Sausages
-Zhi Xian
-Shan Ping

thank you all for your contribution. really appreciative of it.

the bbq was really fun. i went out with my dad to collect the roasted beef and called home to see if anybody had arrived. alison, emmaline , joe and yixin came early so i got my sis down to entertain them. more and more pple arrived loh. the sun disappeared from sight and den so black. there was some technical problems. but it was solved later. but b4 that, i remembered we all had to bbq using candle light. awww so romantic man. lolx. alot happened lar, den i got thrown into the pool. this keenhong, came up to me and asked me if i had alot of clothes at home. den they all grab me and threw me into the pool =/ . it started all because of yixin. she called me to say she`s going to jump inside. den i shouted "come come see free show. girl going to jump in ! " den instead, i found myself in the water. haha, but fun lar, havent had such fun since the outram bbq days. there was a present exchange session between me, emma, ali and yixin. stayed up the previous night till quite late fixing the cards and thinking wad to write on them. cuz i dunno how to make the cards, so i thought of simple designs like cut and paste style. got 2 shirts from ali and emma, nice shirts guys, i like it, thanks ! im short of shirts also haha. nice christmas bbq, nice friends, a memorable night . not to mention the fantastic night with shanping =/ . haix, our fault also lar, we kind of forced him to drink. so, mus be responsible right? haha. anyway shanping, goes to show that the guys still treat u like a comrade after the msn incident. they helped u alot , u owe them 1.

wednesday, mum went to the hospital for treatment. i stayed with my mum from 9+ all the way till about 4+ before i went home to get some rest. den, later went bt panjang plaza . went to aly`s hse to have curry chicken. emmaline pang seh me sia. i actually dun wan2 go liao, pai seh lar haha . in the end, argh, jus go lar, long time nv eat curry already. summore is vry good friend invite. nice dinner. her mum`s a very good cook. the curry i eat at home is more like yellow sauce. no kick 1. cuz we dun really noe how to make those curry like Sammy`s Curry Restaurant beside the old youth flying club .

yesterday, collected results from sch and went to watch narnia with aly. zhixiang and keenhong supposed to come, but in the end, they couldnt.

den, damn scary lar. 1 thing i hate is pple i dunno digging up infomation about me. i really hate it man. i guess what goes around , comes around. i dug up alot of stuffs about other pple before. nw got a taste of how it is like. heaven is fair.. i totally agree now. but i stopped checking up on other pple months ago. cuz i realised the importance of privacy. it somehow seemed wrong . like, how another person lives his/her life is up to them decide, and you just have to respect it. knowing what they do, their daily routine down to their closest seems more like an invasion of their personal space. wad do you gain out of it? nothing.. because in the end u realise that knowledge, sometimes isnt power . it jus shows our cowardice, prying into every nook and cranny trying to gain come comfort in knowledge. sometimes , even for friends u just want to keep certain things from them. you don't want them to know, because privacy gives security. you feel secure knowing that there is still a pandoras box hidden deep inside. sometimes i stumble upon certain knowledge, but i guess that is fine, because now, i`d rather knowledge search me out than i go search for it. fate will handle it? haha. i was just talking to myself throughout, so, skip also can.

i did nothing for the whole of today , except that i went to cut hair. guanzuo and gang went to k-box and they asked me to join them. sorry guys, trying to cut down costs. really sorry, will make it up next time. so, the whole afternoon was spend msging emmaline, talking to zhixiang and staring at the sky. talking to zhixiang`s rather interesting, cuz he`ll always tell me stories about his friend's girl conquest etc etc and advice. i also get alot of advice from keenhong and stuff. guys, its not whether you all have been successful or not. its more like, you want to hear, to learn something. the Dos and Don`ts of girl strategy. if i can offer tips or wad, i`ll gladly do so also, depends whether i have anything to offer u all lar. keenhong and zhixiang are very nice people. 1st, keenhong has straight virtues like sincerity, honesty, loyalty and courage. when i look at him, i get reminded of the people i admired last time, the japanese warrior. he kind of embodies the spirit of the samurai, bushido. anyway, he`ll make a fine guy. jus too bad the girls he like are blind to see that. hope u`ll find a girl who can see what we as friends see in you ! den comes zhixiang. he is some1 that i find reliable in giving advice and will not spread rumours about you. good friend, but sometimes very unreliable when it comes to his girls. pang seh kia ! pang seh me so many times already because of girl or friend. but other than that, he has respect for people. REI, meaning respect in japanese, another virtue . he doesnt put you down with his comments and he plays along with your nonsense even though you think it`s lame. tts why alot of people like him. so, at the end of the day, what happens if you combine the virtues of the different people together and condense them into 1 person? a fantastic person. 1 that all of us hope to be.

why am i talking so much nonsense tonight? beats me.. just felt like it.

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hey dudes,

just a quick recap on the past events that happened over the past few days

Friday-
went christmas shopping for my nieces, Ethel and kelly, nephew, Samual. im only 18 and im an uncle liao. when they`re able to start talking, im going to ban the use of the word "uncle felix" .they`re children of my cousins. my cousin met his wife in secondary school and they are together till now. really amazing man he. it`s either his wife is too good to let go, or he`s very faithful. anyway, that`s his problem. Ethel`s their daughter. kelly belongs to another pair and samual belongs to another.
the Angry woman made me wait 1 hour . eh not fair u noe. everytime i wait 1. dun care u nxt time .make u wait in the hot sun until u chao tar "my skin is peeling oh no oh no " ahah . my mum had a 100 dollars gift voucher. she`s not well, so went christmas shopping in her stead. i very shocked with Angri-Ali .although she looks like tt, she knows how to shop sia. "toys very bo hua, play a few times dun wan to play liao. choose clothes better" <-- words of wisdom from the seemingly unwise. ok lar, she`s smart lar. dun say i everytime suan u .give u credit for once so must be thankful ok. den later on in the day, met zhixiang and chris again. had an early dinner with zhixiang and Angry about 4:45? fried rice very nice leh. haha, long time nv eat is liddat 1. normal food will become like some heavenly dish. at night, met john, shanghao, sewei and robin at great world. sat around and talked. they kept saying want to go clubbing at Ministry of Sound. summore just opened, sure alot of people, queue until can cry .

Saturday-
Morning, Rachel and Sarah came over to my place to play. they played play dough with me and hide and seek. why? because they`re 4 years old. haha. very cute little kiddos. kiddy`s smile can just brighten your day. dunno y also. it`s so innocent haha. their mum is my cousin. came over to visit my mum who was discharged from hospital on monday. for lunch, went with my dad to eat at coronation plaza. ordered the roasted beef for the bbq. later on in the day helped my dad wash his car. night, as usual. watch Shooting The Condor Hero Legend. haha direct translation.

Sunday-
nothing much to talk about. only tt i fought with my little sister over a coconut haha. i saw it in the fridge first. she wanted to drink, i also wanted to drink. den quarrel and quarrel. in the end, i got nothing, cuz she used her ultimate move. crying. den everytime it seems like im bullying her .

Monday(yesterday) -
went to orchard about 2+ to shop for other presents. later on, met satish, tuyuan, shamus, ryan, karwai for king-kong. wanted to get the 7:45pm ticket but only left front row seat. so no choice, bought the 8:45pm tickets. spent the time walking around orchard den taka, ate at burger king and later , the movie. the burger king part was the best. sit there and talked rubbish for so long haha. the movie was quite nice. except that it`s like giant gorilla in Jurrasic Park. jack black was a very good actor. he provided most of the comic relief tt kind and he`s really good at alternating roles between the bastard and the passionate director. too bad keenhong and the rest couldnt come. if not become like class gathering liao. nvm, the real gathering is on the 26th .movie ended at 12:10am. no more bus liao. Night Rider all not operating. took taxi home with karwai. stupid government. i can see through their stupid plan. they terminate bus services at 12+ am , dun provide night-rider for normal weekdays, force you to take a taxi home. summore got mid-night charge. next time i become minister, i will not let the transport industry be monopolised and to create a competitive industry ! so, the moral of the story is, vote for me. lolx. reached home close to 1am. den, realised my next episode of shinsengumi was downloaded successfully. lolx, so watch and slept at 2:30am.

smile =D

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hi

ok let me try and remember wad happened during the past few days. since im free, i`ll write a super-long 1

Monday-
job hunting day. met alison at clementi mrt. she asked me to come early, i did. she herself came 20mins late. she has the CHEEK to make felix da-ren wait for her. should be the other way round loh ! haha. den took train to cityhall. Pinky dunno how to take MRT !! hahaha .nvm lar, now know can already hor? went oriental hotel to wait for her friend, kelvin. went through some dark places and finally went to the banquet office. there were 3 girls and 2 guys there. dunno wad sch they`re from but they`re like quite tall. anyway, it wasnt even an interview. the guy just came out and told us the rules etc. say i must gel hair and make it shiny. no wonder lar, cuz i was wondering how come the guys there the hair so shiny 1. 1 guy comb until like shanghai-tan liddat. i dun like to put anything on my hair. so uncomfortable. went out of tt place and later met emmaline at HMV in raffles city. she was shopping in orchard for earings. sorry emma ! kept changing the meeting time cuz i didnt know when the interview would end. the man also took so long to come out. summore, the guy said need to wait at least an hour for the in-charge to finish dunno wad meeting. went to marina mandrain later to look for another job. fantastic.. lolx. its a secret. pay`s better than oriental by 20 cents ! just filled in form and they say they`ll call us when they need us. which im like dia0~ .so far no calls etc. dun expect them to call anyway. tts y nxt tuesday im goin to try another job. some survey thing. alison`s kelvin went off, den me, emma and ali shopped and ate at some noodle restaurant. ALY , CAN STOP GETTING ANGRY ANOT .damn lar, in 1 day she blow up so many times . haha my fault actually lar, but i just cant help but disturb. emma also laughing away. emmaline leh ! has any1 noticed tt emmaline`s damn cute? u jus cant get angry with her over anything. cutie-emmy haha no wonder everytime Angry targets me. DAMN ! got 1 incident emma and me swop positions when we were walking, den become like short - shorter - shortest . "very funny is it? urgh " den walk off so fast. dao me all the way. it really is funny. but scary also.

Tuesday-
had 1 piece of ham and a half boiled egg for breakfast. usually i would cook something like udon or soba, but these few days so tired tt i wake up close to 12 haha.

fixed up a new computer my dad brought back from his office. his office is disgarding computers that are about 5 years old. so he just took 1 home for free haha. graphics card not bad. P3 though. but still, can play those 3D games etc. nice u know, got webcam haha. but damn sian, the computer was locked up by the company security programme. wad to do? at first i thought could just change hard disks from my old computer to this 1. turn out also cannot. must be the OS lar. den i remembered the easier method. just reformat the computer. haha, damn wad lar, wasted my time unscrewing 2 computers and taking out chips transfer here and there. bloody hell. so, the computer`s working now, but is naked. lazy to screw the outer case back. see when i happy den i screw lar. SCREW IT.
later on in the day, read Confessions of a dangerous mind and watched Shinsengumi .damn nice man. i love the part on the Ikedaya-jiken .the Choshu-han were planning to burn kyoto and the final meeting was held in Ikedaya inn. shinsengumi came to the rescue and became heros overnight. damn nice man, the fighting scenes. i like the part when they entered the inn. " 我ら、会津藩を預かり、新選組である !" 'warera, Aizu-han wo azukari, Shinsengumi de aru! ' (we are the Shinsengumi under the Aizu clan) so cool.

Wednesday-
watching Lord of The Rings and staring at my phone waiting for call from hotel. oh ya, before i forget, do u guys mind roasted beef for the bbq instead of ham? my aunt just recommanded a place to me. i`ll be visiting the place soon to place the order. i believe got standard 1. aunt has tongue for good food. haha. so anyway, spend the day watching shows and later on went jogging. love jogging now. helps me waste time. jog for 1/2 an hour. cool down for 45mins. go and bath. everything done, almost 1 and a half hours gone. woo. haha. i`ve got a mushroom recipie i`ve been working on since the start of the holidays. almost completed already. u need that kind of big big white white mushroom. 1st, slice them in anyway u like. 2nd, mix 2 eggs with sugar in a bowl. if u have minced pork, it`ll do just fine. 3rd, u must get some chinese spices and a little bit of curry powder. i`ve got some at home, but i dun quite remember the names already. have chopped garlic on the standby. 1st, fry the garlic. 2nd, throw in the mushrooms. they`re a little hard, so just plain frying them wun do a thing. u`ll end up burning the outer surface of it only. add water with flour with a pinch of salt. den, when u see it`s a little gooey, put the eggs in. it`s supposed to be a sweet dish, so must watch ur sugar added. stir fry until u get the "egg-sauce" kind of feeling. dun fry he egg becomes like scrambled eggs, cuz u still have to add the powders. summore, the scrambled egg style not nice at all. den, tadah. haha. very nice ok.

next time i tell u all how to make tepanyaki beef. Angry-ALY tried it when she came over for lunch and baked those bunch of cookies i gave u all the nxt day in school. remember? i think it was around right after promos. or somewhere during sept. i cant really remember already haha. damn nice ok lolx. of course lar, i cook 1 haha jk jk


Thursday-
felt a little sick, so slept the whole day. went Cold storage to run errands. STILL NO CALL FROM HOTEL. haha, anyay, cooked my own lunch. Udon. lazy to blog the recipie, so next time den i write about it. anyway, today fixed the computer so its no more naked. sister was watching sharyboy-lavagirl. boring show. i`ve never come across a dumber show besides teletubbies. i grew up on Barney and power rangers. oh man, i think of it, it was so stupid and wrong? haha. i cant imagine myself watching power ranger again. den yonghan still dare ask me if i wanted his power-ranger theme song. he wanted to send me over msn. of course NO lar. meaningless piece of crap. "GO GO POWER RANGER " my god man. but still, i like the message they`re trying to send. that teamwork conquers all. so, tts it for long long entry. cya !

Good Night !
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hey !

now that im so free now, can blog more often already. haha, afterall, i`ve finished my holiday revision also, nearing sch reopen, revise again. damn scared cant promote.. haix. nvm, must look on the bright side ! im so sian at home that i need a job. laihui and zhixiang`s job no more vacancy already. shamus`s job at spagettis need training 1. by the time training finish, bout time to quit job also. wad`s left is tml`s interview at oriental. i wan2 earn money arghh !! so many things to buy , so little money to spend. ahaha, thats always the case for everybody also i guess.

DEBRA ! lolx, finally can access ur blog. moomooland or something like tt. hahahah, why u set password last time ?! btw, i like ur santa picture, so sexy lar. haha .thanks for ur testimonial tt time also .i`ll write u 1 back later k? lolx, hope u can pass too ya? physics-econs girls in our class r the best lar. the chem-econs girls, f*ed up 1. not all lar, some of them dunno how to look at themselves first b4 commenting. some damn guai lan 1.

hey guys, my christmas BBQ u all better come ok. potluck style hor. i cant handle everything myself so, need u guys to help me. alison`s side about 5-6 pple coming . my side, our usual gang lar ! Oie, be friendly ok. must SMILE . and most r girls. lolx. i trying to balance out the numbers actually. there1s still about 2 weeks, so i`ll keep u guys informed about wad to get ok. thanks hor ! Amelia, u and sarah also come leh ! dun have u 2, not interesting liao ! summore sarah promised to bring her mgs friends 1 haha.

yesterday went orchard to shop for christmas gifts for pple. actually wanted to meet shamus zhixiang they all for a chit chat. shamus not working, leg injured (get well soon leh ! lolx, we need to chiong lan or wad lar haha) , zhixiang and christopher very busy. i saw zhixiang and christopher but they didnt see me. why pple like to stare ar? very fun meh? some1 stared at me in 171 yesterday. shit him lar. i too handsome is it. stare stare stare, i also didnt stare at him. golden monkey head. some pple dye hair very nice looking 1. like jap girls dye hair etc. this guy dye hair look even worse. so skinny also, like he`s deprived of nutrients to grow sideways. horizontally challenged. he wait ar. 1 day i become mafia boss, i`ll skin his ass and hang his balls on my christmas tree.

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hey yo guys,

exams are over finally and i can get plenty of rest already. i dunno why for some reason without at least 9 hours of sleep i`ll feel like a zombie. and that made my previous week hell. last week starting from wednesday, woke up early cuz cannot sleep den do work until night, went on for about 1 week.

5/12/05
GP and Physics.
damn tired. woke up at 8:30 and rushed to school, hit school by 9:30 and waited until the start of the paper. after GP, went lot1 for lunch. during lunch, pia physics all the way and call a few friends to clarify questions. thanks alot man ! after physics paper about 4:30, went straight home for econs tuition which was at 5:30 .study all the way until nearly 12. i want to die

6/12/05
Economics
wake up, brush teeth, comb hair, chiong sch. read econs notes in bus. paper ended at 12:15pm .met keenhong at King Albert Park so he could help me with my maths. studied from 1:45pm all the way to almost 10pm .keenhong left about 9pm. thanks alot man keenhong! i wanted to treat u lunch u dun wan. i feel guilty u know. got alot of studying done. called emmaline more than 4 times to ask maths questions also. thanks alot also man emmaline. cleared alot of doubts especially for statistics/probability .pure maths part, is just need to refresh. last year do so much liao. at 10+, rested a while, den called michael to clarify poisson and normal-distribution questions. eg, find probability that 1 cup of tea and 1 cup of coffee are served. in poisson means P(X=1) x P(y=1) . that kind lar. cuz i also not sure when to times and when to add. i owe u 1 also, michael. study until about 1am den slept.

7/12/05
Maths
same morning routine until paper ended at 12. 2hour paper, pure maths quite easy, except for an AP-GP question. the people i asked all couldnt solve it. after that, went to watch chicken-little with alison at cineleisure. initially wanted to watch harry potter. actually i was supposed to watch harry potter with my SRJC friend 2 weeks ago, but i cancelled it. sorry sorry. needed to study. den, the showtime for harry potter was 4+pm. alison cannot , i see time, i also no mood. den, went to watch chicken little. funny show man. everybody must watch chicken little ! lolx, its so lame and funny lar. esp the last part. after tt, went window shopping with her to see stuff. we visited zhixiang and christopher at centre point . at first got a shock lar, cuz chris suddenly jumped on me from behind. he spotted me first. wad to expect. i in full PJ uniform summore. damn funny man we went to disturb alison . do you happen to like soccer, Pinky? hahahahah

8/12/05
Chinese AO
exam venue changed from MPR5 to general office. only me and 2 more pple .paper so hard, i see i also sleepy. dun expect to pass chinese anyway. den, after exam, my dad picked me up and we went to visit my mum in hospital. my aunt was there also. later on in the day, met my outram friends for dinner at Sin Hoi San .120 dollars. wah kao man, the crab was a killer. 20 dollars a person since there were 6 of us. junwei`s crazy man. eat so much chilli. BABY chilli summore. so hot lar. anyway, it was a fantastic dinner. The Last Supper hahaha. cuz some of them going into NS the next day. went hospital again later in the night to say good night to my mum den went home.

TODAY
slack. looking for job. damn. i need money. going for an interview on monday at oriental Mand. opposite suntec. lobang provided by Pinky. for once she did something useful.. hahaha jk jk relax. shanghao and robin may be going as well. 5:50 an hour. dress code : black pants and black shoes. i`ve got 4 black pants by united-uniforms.... job: carry things around and be waiter. went to cut hair today, 12 dollars at bukit timah plaza. aunty very nice, keep smiling 1. lolx. going to jog now, cya

smile ! its a nice day
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"if it may be, let this cup pass from me, but let it be your will, and not mine."

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good morning !

past few days have been either work, watching Shinsengumi or go out and play with Kar-Kia 1,2 and 3 .

i tell u, Shinsengumi MUST watch ok. anybody want the torrent file, sms or msg me. at first i didnt really think much of the show until about episode 20+ den it starts to get really touching. rurouni kenshin fans should know this . yep, the mangaka of RK actually researched and used Shinsengumi members as character models for his manga, Rurouni Kenshin. i have proof 1 ok. cuz i read an interview with him. Hijitaka Toshizo was the character model for Shinomori Aoshi, the man who killed his heart for the sake of the integrity of his group. Okita Souji was the character model for Seta Soujirou , the smiling murderer. Harada Sannosuke was the character model for Sagara Sannosuke, the free loader + happy-go-lucky attitude. and alot alot more.

anyway, about 3 days ago? i met Emma and Yixin to eat at pizzahut for dinner at JP .DREAM-GIRL nv join us because she was at orchard watching harry-potter. supposed to watch Harry with my SRJC friend on monday but i cancelled it. sorry ok so sorry. lolx. last week i ate at Seoul Garden with Chris, keenhong, zhixiang, tuyuan, satish and later on met shamus for a chit chat. den, yesterday, i went to eat at Bukit Timah Food Centre with Ali, Emma and Yixin. very near for me also hahaha. next week and next next week is SUPER SIAN PERIOD for me. i decided already. to PIA and PIA.

oh, last week, my handphone broke down, so i used my amsung phone for 2 days while my motorola phone was sent for repair. went to PS on both tuesday and wednesday to fix and collect my phone. 1 month old only den break down. damn. lolx luckly covered by warranty, if not sure die 1. frankly, past few have been with ups and downs? lolx. the whole shanping incident was so intense that almost every1 was involved. everybody had their fair share of comments, but jennifer is just too much.

jennifer, i dunno whether u treated your comments like a joke, but i felt it was just too much. insulting people is 1 thing. degrading people till he`s like not human is another. pls show the basic respect even for an enemy. it was not as if he mentioned you or anything. you`re just an outsider yet you humiliated him infront of everybody. out of everyone who insulted him, u`re the 1 who should apologise or make up to him first.

long time no see

hello hello,

its been a long time man! lolx. paiseh lar, everytime say want to blog, den end up doing something else like watch drama, listen song, look out of window, everything else but blogging. hahaha, lay chey lar.sorry if u`re waiting for an entry.

ok, life is good. now must study for RE EXAMs. its on the 5th all the way to the 8th of dec. nice u know!! the exam format all change liao den, no GP paper 2. i dunno how happy u know hahaha. GP paper 2 sux man. anyway, lets see the events where i`ve left off since oct 17.

-SHortly after Oct 17
*i cant really rmb but i`ll try k? lolx
hmm promos are over and kwek`s leaving. so sad. nt that i love him but he has been kind with me for my injured hand. im grateful for that, so i`ll no longer insult him. =D hahah. but den, i`ll miss all his stupid stories.

"there were 5 frogs on a tree. one day there was a fire. "

"Pioneers, i used to be very handsome. since i became the principal of pj, my hair become white. it`s very stressful u know.."

"everytime i drive out of pjc, i dare not look u know. i dare not look. i`m afraid.. that 1 pj student will get bang down by a car"

"time fries..."

-noT so ShortLY after oct 17
i took out my cast on my own. wah buay tahan man.. so hot and stinky inside. u know hor, i wake up every morning, can smell the fragrance of my hand u know. den, after i took out the cast, i kept it inside my cupboard. bad thing is ,i open the cupboard door, PHROOM, aroma man.. gt fed up, so threw it away. the skin was peeling so badly also.. man.. den, a few days later, went out with emmaline and That-Short-Thing to eat at cineleisure. den, go around taka den go home.

-nearing TODAY
a friend went hospital, so tagged along to visit. argh ! on tuesday went back to NUH for checkup. i dun understand u know! how come hospital must wait so long 1. my appointment was supposed to be at 10:50 , i ended up seeing the doctor at nearly 1pm. wad the hellll .. anyway, SMILE SMILE .gd thing is, my hand`s fine already. BUT, my bone is bent, so i`ve lost my knuckle .My carreer as the tiger-of-cck has ended.. i`ll leave the protection of cck to Zhi Xian..
so yesterday, went out shopping whole day. so sorry cant accompany yixin, emma and The-Short-Thing go bugis today.
today, just study and study. make up for time lost. lolx. went to study at KAP with my outram friend since 4+ all the way till about 8. result? 2 out of 6 essays complated. damn.. sure fail 1..
hahaha

cya !

smile ! =D

hello !

hello !

slack n slack. damn, nt the best time to slack esp when i need to study. well, life`s nice, school's good. sia lar, i think i`ve been wanting to watch alot of movies lately. went to watch Bigolo last thursday and man. lame show. bt funny lar, lolx i think tt`s all tt matters for a lame movie. abt 7 days ago, we watched Mississipi Burning during gp lessons. nt bad, quite interesting. about racism in duh, Mississipi lolx .

ahahaha, spent the whole afternoon with the dwarf-of-smallvill . nt tt im very tall, bt because im short, i can call her short also lolx. sat in Long John Silvers for like.. 1.5 hours just plain talking. hey, i dun bullshit my whole life away k. ya know, we gotta have these kind of serious talks abt friends, life and wadeva once in a while. she`s a damn nice person, except everytime get angry with me =.= yesterday also, hung out with emmaline(debate), geeta(debate), narin(debate), weizhong(soccer mate), WEI QI (debate) lolx and 2 of their classmates. very nice and friendly people. den later, went home with emmaline and "force" her take 985 with me hahaha. interesting talk also.

personally, geeta forces things to happen, speculate so much and damn, cant stay out of people`s business.

geeta, sometimes, u`ve gotta understand that what U BELIEVE will work for you, may not necessarily work the same for others. you are you, they are they, till you can understand that every1 is unique in his/her own way , you`ll never be able to comprehend what it really means to like somebody. u like *him bcause he is handsome? dun make me laugh pls. u dun even know a damn thing about him except that his good friend is satiyah and what u hear from petrina.
u listen carefully k? judging whether a person is nice is up to yourself to find out nt what others tell u. u dun even bother to do anything. just sit back and hope for him to get attracted to your ever-changing appearance.
first appreciate yourself for who you are, then slowly and gradually others will come to appreciate you. why pretend to be some1 else? whether it is *him to come to appreciate i dunno and i dun presume to know, but it works both ways man.. if he likes you, good for u. if he doesnt, it may be better that way. dun try too hard.. you may not like what lies at the end..
so take your time. 2 years in JC is not the limit. dun set goals for yourself when this kind of stuff is concerned. u`re acting like you`re only going to see him for 2 years only. friendships arent bounded by time. they are bounded by faith, respect and understanding.
take your time, and 1 day, he may come to realise hw beautiful you really are. But i warn you.. don't treat time as an investment. if u think by taking 50 years he will no doubt fall for you, u`re wrong there. Time is never an investment, it has never been. Time is just an indication of your sincerity and feelings.
Do it not for others, but for yourself to see. test yourself, see if u really like the person, or just the brand-name of having a bf. is it really important what others see ur current status as? i dun want 2 act like i know u very well, but if you happen to see this, hope u can give it some thought, geeta.
you`re a believer of "i like u, u like me, we r 1 big family" but cant u see without a foundation even the great-wall of china will collapse?
the truth hurts more than fire, the reality stings far greater than anything. However, never forget 1 thing. The darkest hour comes before dawn.

i wish u all the best and i promise everyone reading this. it shall be my first and last post on this issue.

im warning you geeta, i said all these on my own accord. i dun want to hear E or A or N coming to tell me you blame them. u want, take it out on me, i accept. u guai-lan them because of what i choose to write on my own accord, watch out. i dun care hw u react to this, just remember what i said.

wah lao..

yo.........

today had a bad day in sch. mooi shouted at me and thinks i broke my hand on purpose. all i did was ask him why i had a F in my promo even though i didnt sit for it. should be - only.. hate him to hell man.. spoilt my day in sch ever since. luckly i went out with keenhong, tuyuan, guanzuo, shanping , satish , zhixian and chris and felt a whole lot better. wooo, managed to relax in orchard. thanks!

i can say sorry once , twice and as many times as possile.. i really didnt msg fz on purpose. i was trying to send alison a msg then keep thinking of mooi shouting and my hatred for that teletubby den i accidently sent the msg to her.. pressed cancel button to stop send.. recorded in outbox as FAILED msg.. haix.. i was banging my hand on the table for such a stupid mistake. even laihui got shocked. den, i tried to replay the whole incident with keenhong, hoping that i cancelled the msg in time and it would not be sent even though outbox said FAILED.. in the end, keenhong still got the msg even though it was recorded as FAILED in my outbox.. wad am i thinking man.. im just so sorry for everything. really. i sent her a apology sms and later realised i forgot to write in the word "forget" . im really an idiot man. FELIX, YOU ARE A BLOODY IDIOT

today wasnt a good day at all. i hate today. i hate all the stupid mistakes i did. yonghan even asked me why am i so screwed today after i told him wad happened. dunno lar, blame Mooi? blame the phone? or blame myself? i dunno. but the ans is pretty clear, im so screwed and im really very sorry

doctors have no brains

stupid doctor u know, really damn stupid. i went for the review today and guess wad, SHE told me i could write immediately by casting the middle finger down to the pinkie and the arm in cast, leaving my thumb and 2nd finger free to write. use some brain can, u think im sitting for a chinese calligrapgy exam? stupid idiot u know. nv think at all. good thing is, i don't have to go for a surgery. ANOTHER doctor told me it should heal in 6 weeks time. wooo, i think my promo`s in 6 weeks time as well, since mr kwek told me he`ll give me my promos after i`ve recovered.

then that stupid female doctor told me i couldnt ask for a written statement of when i`ll be able to recover and start writing. luckly my mum stepped in and i got a vague written statement from her. stupid trainee. all female doctors r brainless. now my hand is in cast, and AS EXPECTED, i still have alot of difficultly writing.

was in sch yesterday studying with my class. quite productive. will be joining my J2 friends for their study programme.

=D smile , we can do it

damn..

sigh.. i`ve fractured my right hand on the eve of my promos. bloody stairs.. was walking then tripped and used my pinkie to support myself. in the end, nothing but a big swell. went to see doc, got referred to A&E at NUH and damn.. saw my own bone in the x-ray. got crack somemore.. they say wait till swelling stops then high chance need to go for surgery.. haix.. dunno wad to do lar. imagine me taking RE paper in November.. i dun want that. November is for me to go out, chiong lan, go shopping, go BBQ and alot of activities.. besides RE paper is twice as hard as promos. damn.. great fall, Felix.

now onto something more cheerful. read in ah-lian's blog about inuyasha. actually, i do see him everywhere too lolx. how come ar. i everytime see him like to sing "I want to change the World" and do para para also. lolx.

been doing work, mainly physics and maths. hoping that can get me somewhere.. sorry for slightly moody tone.. i find it hard to just type with my left-hand and my right-hand is screaming under the plaster. exam stress, my parents also very stressed, cuz things r like that now. just want them to cheer up and do something that can pleaae them. hate seeing people i care for being upset / depressed / stressed. feel useless if i should not get through this year. *sigh*

frown =(

Trembling through the night

hi~ last night was cold.. don't know about the rest of you but i was shivering in my bed. then, this morning had a bad cold. i was supposed to go jogging today but man.. cant go liao. promos r coming.. im seriously feeling twice the terror and fear of promos. 1 for last year, and 1 for this year <--(feeling the full blast) . strange man, last year i went into promos with a smile. no fear wadsoever. played my whole year away singing songs in class and going town, bugis, PS, aiya, alot of places lar. now, think im feeling the weight of 2 years.

i love my life, i love my class, and i`ve never ever regretted making the decision to retain. i love everybody i`ve met. we played and had fun together =D. we sang and got scolded together =o . we studied and learned together o-o . the days are shorter, the end is nearer, and by God we all know the consequences of failing. teachers are against us, Kwek and Yeo hate us.. Should we fail, they`ll be standing right at the gates waving us goodbye. we will not fail. since they are so eager to see us gone, let it be known that they will not see the last of us. YOU knew us as failures, YOU subtly called us worthless. but we will prove it to you. let us all fight towards a common goal. tell them in 1 voice! that we will not go quietly into the NIGHT, we will not vanish without a FIGHT! We`re going to press on, and when the skies have cleared, you will see us only as survivors..

Try us, we can

Smile

-bleh-

ok, lets go on to important events. monday, did an econs mock test in class and damn, i barely passed. and im much more determined to study physics. i can feel my physics is not up to standard.. i dun want to fail. i want to get promoted very badly. God, dear Lord, please help me. and my maths.. DANG , I`M SO BAD AT PROBABILITY. going to find 1 free day to get keenhong to teach me. that guy is very good at maths, smart fellow, F-Maths class summore k. and worst of all, my chinese.. i did a chinese essay test in the library. used ci-dian, english-chinese dictionary, and a phrase book to help me in chinese compo. den, tadah, 29/70 . FANTASTIC. 3 books leh !! WHY?!! WEI-SHE-MO? WO-ZHEN-DE-BU-ZHI-DAO. then on tuesday, ryan, kienhin and karwai we all were shooting cards in class. lolx, damn fun man. long time nv play that already, last time i played that was in primary school hahaha

smile =D

a week

hello man hello. wanted to blog earlier, but lazy. my comp now also going crazy as well. so many spyware and adware inside.

monday-
kia lai kia ki at home. walk around, drink water, go toilet, look out of window, do some econs, see monkey climbing tree <--(my house next to forest). i see a bigger monkey in the mirror lolx. speaking of which, last time when i shifted into my new place about 6 years ago, see monkey outside i`ll be "MONKEY MONKEY MONKEY!!" now see monkey can yawn also lolx. my old place look out of window only see A.Y.E . later on, went gym jog about 4.5km . i think im fat. lolx hahahah.

tuesday-
michelle and huanqing pang-seh me(crying)... whole of S30 only i turn up for chinese mock exam. other senior J-1 people also pontang. exam started at 8am, den i see people strolling in at 8:45 =.= PRISCILLA lar, walk in at 8:45 still can laugh. bad students.. den, shiook u know, i know how to write the last of the Han-Zhi . hahaha, usually 1st 5 words skip 1. i can see improvement.. <--(bullshit) lolx. after chinese mock, stay in sch to study (ya right..) in the end , talk with yichen until about 1pm zzzzzzzzz. den, chao-ah-lian come out from her lessons. damn, i didnt know she was with her. oh my god ! lolx. need mental preparation 1 <--(i scared) u know hahaha. den, went cut hair cut until very short den go do some stuff in orchard. too tired, did some physics then went to sleep

wednesday-
wake up, look at sky, brush teeth. i saw a blue bird... den, make my own breakfast and met michael at KAP mcdonalds to study. i saw my neighbour.. she everytime see me, run away liao. i so scary meh? lolx. she was there then keep looking in our direction. stupid neighbour think we looking at her nia. study and study until sian, den went home and i went gym again.

thursday-
i cant believe it, i needed to go school for econs from 9:30 all the way to 3:30. i left my house about 8:50 then waited for 67 to come. this part sux, waited for SO long den 3 190buses came at the same time. NO WONDER LAR. stupid uncle, must be go coffee shop drink kopi-o together, then drive off together.i was LATE! lolx, luckly saw karwai then we go in together. i need sleep noe, recently nv sleep enough. den later during break, we went lot1 to eat lunch. realised i could no longer eat spicy stuff. i used to be able to eat alot of laksa 1 ok. xiang-tang-nian.... hahahah. its true ok. then, studied in school and talked until 5+ then i went home.

friday-
took care of little kids at TAMPANESE. woke up at 6:30am and not enough sleep. little miss ali talk with me in msn for so long the night b4. slept at 1+ . couldnt stand the teachers there, so strict with the kids. comeon man, they are KIDS. kids like to show affection to others by playing and climbing over you. why stop them? stupid old ladies so strict with the kids there. kids do stuff like talking to us that kind they will keep a close check. sometimes even recall them back into the centre. then, the teachers told us stuff about the previous CIP batches that came, said they weren`t happy with them, say girls dressing very indecent. pls lar, wear a little baggy jeans is called indecent? clothes abit body hugging is called indecent as well? guys wear normal shorts also called indecent? pls lar, might as well make it a rule for cip volunteers to wear tuxedo lar. THATS NOT HOW U RAISE KIDS. damn it, cant they use some brain. kids have no chance to express views. teachers even complain about my friend who had some kids climbing over him. all he did was tell the teacher "it is alright" when the teachers scolded the kids. the teacher said "the teacher authority is absolute and must not be questioned" say it will have an adverse influence on the kids if he said "its ok". but at least, after that, we managed to play with the kids. very cute kiddos. they supposed to go sleep, keep waving at me lolx. about 5pm, we played some games and then, teachers brought them away AGAIN. haix.. wanted to play more with the kids. all in primary sch, some even younger i think. that night, was too tired to do anything, so i slept at about 10+ and woke up TODAY about 10+ as well. hahahha

smile =D hehe

busy busy

hey~ lousy weekend , nothing but tuition zzzzz. why promo coming so soon ar(i scared leh) lolx. i dun wan go army next year T_T so, must pass haha. yesterday class all the way till night then went to some place to drink coconut juice lolx <--(favourite drink). the satay so nice nia.. long time nv eat satay liao. night, talk on msn with YEEHA~ all the way. keep asking me about shankar (do i look like him?) lolx. geetha, relax lar, dun like then dun like lar, why so uptight. keep changing your story =.= 1 haix.. i hear i also very stress leh. stress causes wrinkles... haha

then today more shiok, met my srjc friend yonghan for "lunch" at orchard. supposed to eat lar, end up eating bread from crystal-jade bakery and breadtalk hahaha. walked in kinokuniya and look at manga for long time. miss my school rumble(funny manga k?) then later went up to best-denki to see see. oh ya, best part is, i saw wad i wanted to buy for *(erhem) lolx. just realised how poor i am omg~ lolx, nvm i`ll find a way~ smile smile~. den i also saw my outram friend waiting at orchard mrt station. i came up the escalator, den see him standing there. at first cannot recognise him, saw the mole on his face "AR ! , XUANHUI !" . long time nv see the mole liao lolx =DD . nice guy u know, been messing with him since sec 1, right anot SWAN?

ahahha den walked down to cineleisure there, my friend wan to see gunDAMN models <--(i dun really like the robot) den in the shop saw a video of the seiyuu of Athrun and Lacus. hahahaha, Athrun look so ugly in real life. wah.. lacus.. chiobu leh.. omg!! lolx, serious. must know something about seiyuus. normally their voice very nice 1, but in real life, OMG, i cant believe that sai-kia is actually them~ lolx hahaha. but true leh.. that time i thought the seiyuu of Narusegawa of love-hina would be a big big chio bu, turn out, #$%^^#@@%. lolx <--(censored)

these days no game to play. haix.. tuesday still need to go for chinese mock exam in the morning then rush down for CIP immediately until like 7+ or 8+. michelle say she not going, HQ say she going overseas. left me =( ARGHHH i dun wan to go chinese mock exam. i realised i could see the future since last year.. i always seem to know what my chinese score is! lolx. omg man, go mock exam to make a mockery of myself. but den, if i dun go, no senior J1 will be there = chinese teacher will dulan me . not good leh.. lolx, i so innocent 1 also.. hahaha

smile =D bottoms up

Days that come, days that go

hi~ wanted to blog yesterday actually but den nothing much happen yesterday (boring lar) lolx. woke up at 10:30 yesterday. supposed to meet michael and his church friends to play POOL lolx. long time nv touch that game liao, lost fantastically (it won't be the last, Michael =D ) walked from my place all the way to Beauty World and i thought i could reach there in 5mins lolx <--(brain not working properly these days) in the end reached there in 10+mins. sorry i arrived late pal~!

played for about an hour den went mcdonalds to eat and tok cock haha. later on, chiong econs essay to hand in today(friday). feel damn bad lar.. owe him homework so long liao. he still come class say "some people tell me they will hand in last friday, up to now still never hand in" <-- like duh? he`s referring to me lar lolx. i HANDED IN liao. yap`s a nice guy actually. tries his best to help us and doesnt scold much. i told him he hurt my feelings (sarcastically) when he said something i cant really remember <--(true ok? i really forgot and not because it is very insulting). den he answer me back i also hurt his feelings by not coming to his makeup class say wad he is deeply hurt by me <-- BULLSHIT!!! lolx. nice guy man..

den comes TODAY !! lolx. so many things happened? whole day was doing GP file lar. 10 marks leh who dun wan lolx. pon tang PE again. i pon so many times den when i finally turn up for PE, Mr Kwok will be "hey, good to see you here again~" lolx i PE rep summore den pon. hwhahaha this is funny. avoided canteen (whole of A01 was there lar), went to concourse to do file. there so dark.. raining summore.. i scared...

Lt4 got talk by Dennis Yeo =.= he keep looking at me when he saying something sarcastic lar wth. target me... though i missed 90% of his talk, i still found it inspirational. mrs lim is a very good CT.. its true. though i cant stand the fact she called my house, looking deeper, it was for us. feel very bad.. <--(hey, im human too ok?) though i seem like a cool-blooded joker, its soft inside..

May (Mei) or whatever the spelling is, shut up lar. you`re getting on my nerves really. you think like you`re like the goddess around so you can just piss people off with your rude comments. pls lar, there`s only 1 goddess to me lar, dats some1 near yet so far, and i promise you, she`s 100 times better looking than you. personality and character also better than you (trying to find out more about her as well..) though i think she doesnt like me but the point is, she`s better than u lar. look in the mirror pls.

just thinking of May alone has spoilt my mood. sorry, but thats it for today.. i`ll blog something more cheerful the next time, i promise.

=(

MY SLEEP

yo~ today had to wake up extra early just because my little sister wants to go to sch early to give presents to her teacher =/ . used to be a tradition to give presents to every teacher <--(bribe them !!) hahahaha <-- but everytime nv work 1 leh, always want to tok to my father one =/ . but these years, nah, i dun give.. so lay-chey. need to go scout for gifts <--(lazy lar) lolx. and damn, retainee class is really retainee class. more than 1/2 of the class was absent hahaha. +, today no attendence taking! wad the hell. if i know i also dun wan come lolx. my sleep very precious 1 leh. miss my bed..and my pillow.. teachers day celebrations nice man. i zhao to canteen and was eating chicken rice den, heard the band playing Inu Yasha soundtrack lolx. quite nice lar, gotta admit but some parts wrong leh (i listen alot last time) haha.

later on, met my secondary sch friends at far-east-plaza for lunch and go around shopping. hahahaha den we saw some juniors wearing Outram uniform and PE T-shirt. they dunno we their seniors den we sing the sch song when they walk near us lolx. so funny man, must see their face then u`ll know (bo liao right?) . walked from Heeren to takashimaya until about 4+ then i went home (tired lar). oh ya! i saw Seok Ying in takashimaya. i was walking past a shop opposite crystal-jade bakery den i saw a long hair girl quite chio and very familiar inside. den that girl also look at me. i bend backwards to get a better look loh lolx den she also bent backwards and make that kind of funny face at me (the kind that Sheryl gives everytime she sees me =/ ) den i realised its Seok Ying hahahah lolx. we wave then i walked off liao. today again is a fine day =D

damn tired leh. dun feel like doing much today, want to just sit around and slack my life away. wah liew, i did dat last year and tadah, here i am this year. i do dat again, tadah, i`ll find myself in pulau tekong next year =/ scary man. lolx, dunno why these days keep having headache, i tot i sleep 8-9 hours leh still have headache.. nvm, holidays coming, can sleep until shuang, but means no breakfast for me. lolx, my mum doesnt prepare breakfast if i miss the breakfast time, so i cook loh. lay-chey, but can lar. prepare the usual Udon or Soba (i can cook k?)umm.

smile =D

A new beginning

Hello~ . had a headache today and went home at 12:30 sharp with Zhi Xiang. stopped by Lot1 to buy stuff and then went home straight. gotta apologise to Mr Yap for skipping his econs make-up lessons. tried to sleep but couldn't, so ended up creating a blog for fun =D . today again is a happy day. strange right? i think everyday is a happy day i must be going crazy, my my.

today was not a joke filled day like yesterday. haix.. today physics and chinese only so not much chance to joke. nice class i have. i just realised yesterday that i'm going to have so many holidays and no debate meeting for 2 weeks hahahaha. so cool man. been wanting to watch a movie these days. dunno wad nice movie leh. to tell ya the truth, i`ve been wanting to watch Bewitched and Wedding Crashers. supposed to watch a movie last week or 2 weeks ago (cant remember leh) with some chao-ah-lian from A01 along with some rather interesting people lolx. ended up staying back in sch to study. speaking of studying, i cant seem to study with a group of friends. i always end up talking more than working. its like talking 70% and working 30% <--- (im totally shocked) how come my mouth so big hahaha?

somebody`s birthday is coming (stress~) cant find anything nice to buy. heard some opinions but haix.. dunno why still so hesitant lolx. realised something. it takes 2cents worth of effort to say something casual but a million bucks worth of feelings to say something sincere. gotta find my guts these few days. must ask God to help me liao. <-- funny right? i dun even go to church. wad can i do?? funny to know that this bloody big mouth debator is damn shy. shy of wad? dunno. rejection? mayb leh. sec 1-4 also same thing.. see her liao, quickly siam hahaha. when i try to talk to her, i cant even keep eye contact. its so funny that i want to laugh lolx. why am i like that? kk dun talk about it liao. later got spy here i very scared also lolx. had a close shave with rachel all thanks to shamus. SHAMUS!!! argh 4get it.

smile =DD cheers