fire and stars

wad a way to start a year. already so many things have happened in just 2 weeks. i can really laugh and see all the stupid things that happened. my school life, being stuck in S15. my social circle, totally wrecked . im seeing less and less of my good friends. so many good friends gone. so many buddies that i can laugh and share things with are all gone. either at home, or in different classes. why am i stuck with people that i do not think i can come to like? i dunno. i like to question God sometimes why did he place me in a class with a few people i really dislike. i dunno.. mayb he wants to show to me that there isnt such a thing as hate at first impression.

fires and stars are complicating things. the problem is, they are hot. they burn when u get too near. they may experience sudden changes in temperature due to unexpected hydrogen variations. very hard to understand it and predict . i guess that`s why there are so many people staring up at the night sky gazing upon it`s beauty. its soft radiating light. stars are far away, but not impossible to reach. with science, nothing is impossible already. so those who have the will and determination, will definitely reach them. but they must also have faith in the science that will take them up there. its quite simple right. u want to reach a star, build a spaceship. but if you want to reach a goddess, u must first become a god. very difficult.

new year resolutions:
- sincerity
- do what i can in utmost good faith for the people i care
- study hard
- stop speculating events to come. just take a step at a time
- stop looking at girls
- reduce computer time to 1 hour a day
- be true to my feelings
- no hypocrisy
- control my tongue from blurting unintentional remarks
- have faith and trust in my friends
- not to have crushes based on physical attraction. but through mature assessment of character
- be more patient
- be more understanding
- be more polite
- stop scolding "fuck" when things go wrong
- understand other people`s good intentions
- be sure to train arm strength
- control emotions and feelings and just smile when things go wrong
- to have courage for my friends
- be more whacky and cheerful'
- smile more