hello !

hello !

slack n slack. damn, nt the best time to slack esp when i need to study. well, life`s nice, school's good. sia lar, i think i`ve been wanting to watch alot of movies lately. went to watch Bigolo last thursday and man. lame show. bt funny lar, lolx i think tt`s all tt matters for a lame movie. abt 7 days ago, we watched Mississipi Burning during gp lessons. nt bad, quite interesting. about racism in duh, Mississipi lolx .

ahahaha, spent the whole afternoon with the dwarf-of-smallvill . nt tt im very tall, bt because im short, i can call her short also lolx. sat in Long John Silvers for like.. 1.5 hours just plain talking. hey, i dun bullshit my whole life away k. ya know, we gotta have these kind of serious talks abt friends, life and wadeva once in a while. she`s a damn nice person, except everytime get angry with me =.= yesterday also, hung out with emmaline(debate), geeta(debate), narin(debate), weizhong(soccer mate), WEI QI (debate) lolx and 2 of their classmates. very nice and friendly people. den later, went home with emmaline and "force" her take 985 with me hahaha. interesting talk also.

personally, geeta forces things to happen, speculate so much and damn, cant stay out of people`s business.

geeta, sometimes, u`ve gotta understand that what U BELIEVE will work for you, may not necessarily work the same for others. you are you, they are they, till you can understand that every1 is unique in his/her own way , you`ll never be able to comprehend what it really means to like somebody. u like *him bcause he is handsome? dun make me laugh pls. u dun even know a damn thing about him except that his good friend is satiyah and what u hear from petrina.
u listen carefully k? judging whether a person is nice is up to yourself to find out nt what others tell u. u dun even bother to do anything. just sit back and hope for him to get attracted to your ever-changing appearance.
first appreciate yourself for who you are, then slowly and gradually others will come to appreciate you. why pretend to be some1 else? whether it is *him to come to appreciate i dunno and i dun presume to know, but it works both ways man.. if he likes you, good for u. if he doesnt, it may be better that way. dun try too hard.. you may not like what lies at the end..
so take your time. 2 years in JC is not the limit. dun set goals for yourself when this kind of stuff is concerned. u`re acting like you`re only going to see him for 2 years only. friendships arent bounded by time. they are bounded by faith, respect and understanding.
take your time, and 1 day, he may come to realise hw beautiful you really are. But i warn you.. don't treat time as an investment. if u think by taking 50 years he will no doubt fall for you, u`re wrong there. Time is never an investment, it has never been. Time is just an indication of your sincerity and feelings.
Do it not for others, but for yourself to see. test yourself, see if u really like the person, or just the brand-name of having a bf. is it really important what others see ur current status as? i dun want 2 act like i know u very well, but if you happen to see this, hope u can give it some thought, geeta.
you`re a believer of "i like u, u like me, we r 1 big family" but cant u see without a foundation even the great-wall of china will collapse?
the truth hurts more than fire, the reality stings far greater than anything. However, never forget 1 thing. The darkest hour comes before dawn.

i wish u all the best and i promise everyone reading this. it shall be my first and last post on this issue.

im warning you geeta, i said all these on my own accord. i dun want to hear E or A or N coming to tell me you blame them. u want, take it out on me, i accept. u guai-lan them because of what i choose to write on my own accord, watch out. i dun care hw u react to this, just remember what i said.